September 28, 2017
Have you felt like God is deaf?
Or worse, isn’t really there?
Lord, I call to You;
my rock, do not be deaf to me.
If You remain silent to me,
I will be like those going down to the Pit.
Listen to the sound of my pleading
when I cry to You for help,
when I lift up my hands
toward Your holy sanctuary.
A friend once expressed doubt that God would be silent for any length of time to a person earnestly seeking to hear from Him. Yet, I have experienced such silences. This has happened on ironic occasions when I most acutely, aggressively sought to hear Him.
David the Psalm writer experienced it too. Even the Messiah, the Holy One, the Son of God, had the same feeling at least once.
The silence is difficult – painful. You lack wisdom. You want to move ahead. Yet, the path is fogged over. The pause button has been clicked. Resources diminish daily.
darkness burrows in and sits
heart tuned anyway
You question whether you are listening. You question if there is something in your life hindering the work of God or your prayers. Fantasies of angels showing up at your door with a note from God tease for attention.
Is this a time to stop praying? Is it a time to give up and hammer it out in your own? Go eat comfort food, immersed in melancholy?
Wouldn’t that path be even worse? How do I know that God is not ordering things, even the silence? Do I now determine that He is unfaithful because doesn’t follow my time-line? Is my trust in His character, or is it in His performance on my behalf?
I daily need wisdom. In accordance with the promise He gave in James, I ask.
And I wait, occasionally through distressing dead air. Sometimes He is silent. Others, I am not paying attention.
Yes, God can respond with silence. When it happens, you gain opportunity to know Him and yourself more deeply.